Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
Today has felt like one of the longest days ever.
It’s not that work was bad, or overly slow… in fact, it got really busy in spurts. But I just feel BLAH. Drained mostly, a little light-headed but I think that’s from lack of food today. Melinda’s having a party tonight and invited me! I want to go, but at the same time I feel all ~_~_~_~_~ and don’t really feel like being at a party. You know? One of those I want to hole up by myself for a while type of nights. :/ I feel bad, because I’ve never actually been to a kegger before, haha. And Melinda’s never hosted one before. But I’m just not up for it tonight. Which kind of makes me feel lame. My hair also feels really gross. I doubt it looks that gross, but I feel like it’s gross. Random, but true.
However, on another level I feel more grown up, haha. Recently, I made what I think is a pretty big decision regarding what I’m going to do in the future. Or at least it’s a stepping stone.
Originally I was going to go back to Japan in September. I did a bit of searching on the job front and found some that I was interested in, but nothing that really stood out. Then I realized I had to do all that extra work to get my certification saying I really did complete the requirements to be a certified ESL teacher, renew my passport and find a place that sponsors your visa.
I just started the certification process by asking for my transcript from University. I still have to go renew my passport (shouldn’t be a big deal) and I don’t want to go over to Japan with just a little amount of money.
So I decided to stay here for the autumn and head off to Japan in January. That gives me enough time to get everything done, find a decent job that I’m actually interested in doing and make some money in the meantime. I was just thinking about what I would do, when my boss told me that if I was around I could work in the office (he owns a software company) when the campground closes.
That would be pretty much awesome. I can work and earn money, and I also could keep my job at the conservatory. The one other thing that kind of held me back was leaving my students. I know I can’t stay with them forever and that I have to move on, but I really like these kids and I feel so guilty leaving them. Katey told me that all her piano teachers leave her, and she didn’t want me to leave. (By all, she means her former one, haha… but Katey is dramatic). But the point is, I really adore these kids so I’m happy to stay on for another few months and then also be able to say a proper goodbye. Instead of OKAY SUMMER’S OVER. NEW TEACHER. You know?
I think I’d like to take these extra few months to really work on my Japanese as well. I know I use it everyday for Shattered-Tranquility.net, but I’d like to become much, much better than I currently am. So maybe if I actively study, it will improve… at least a little bit.
So yes, that is what I have decided and am going to. I really want to go back to Japan and I’m looking forward to it, but I also have loose ends to tie up here and I wouldn’t feel comfortable going over only having a thousand or so dollars — just in case.
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