Then I sat down and really thought about it.

And started to wonder if I had built you up in my mind, to be someone that you’re not, because that’s who I wanted you to be. So I interpreted what you said and did in such a way that you appeared to be exactly what I was looking for. Anything that didn’t really fit, I just turned a blind eye to, because quite frankly isn’t it just easier that way?

Unfortunately, the more I think about it, the more I flip back and forth. I guess it’s not like I really need to make any sort of ‘decision’ about it, so maybe it just doesn’t matter and I’m putting in far more thought than need be.

In the past, it kind of went up and down anyways. So maybe this is just another down. Then something will happen and this whole post will seem ridculous. I don’t know. It’s never been that… forced. And it was just so forced. Maybe it wasn’t and I’m overreacting, but it felt like that to me. I don’t want to have to try for something so simple, you know?

And there are some things that I don’t know if I could ever compromise.

That’s all I have to say about that.