IT HAS BEEN A WEEK SINCE I LAST UPDATED MY BLOG.

I have something I want to write, but I’ll likely save it for when I’m not at work.

Right now, my stomach really hurts. I think I ate too much, too fast. Or maybe just enough, and too fast. The main point of this, is that I think I ate too fast and now I have a stomach ache and it’s incredibly uncomfortable.

I finally went to the bank yesterday. I had stored up five pay cheques, which always makes depositing them feel more rewarding. However, it’s not as appreciated by my bosses…

Fair enough.

Okay, so yesterday. Steve came over to tune my piano (he’s also my boss) because it needed tuning and I always get it done around Christmas time so the Christmas songs sound nice and not really weird. I mean, when you have to play things in octaves, and the notes don’t sound the same, you have a bit of a problem.

Anyways, this isn’t about my piano tuning. While Steve was tuning, we were talking (and I was playing Fire Emblem). So he decided that he would find me a boyfriend, which would therefore make me not want to go to Japan and I would stay here, and continue teaching at the Conservatory. 

…

Doesn’t that sound awfully familiar? Kind of like what Mr. A said?

Steve decides that someone I already know (I’m not mentioning names here) would be perfect. So he’s like I’LL SET YOU UP! HE’S GOING PLACES YOU KNOW! 

I said it’s okay. I mean, I know the guy and he is really nice and all, but I’m really not into being set up. 

It’s flattering to know people don’t want me to leave, and it makes leaving that much harder. But at the same time, I need to go out and do my own thing… and try new things. I’m not saying I’m going away forever and never coming back, or not going to keep in touch with people… but I do need to do my own thing, you know?

Anyways. Yes. 

I need to write about something else later, and even though poor Ailea has already heard it all, I need to vent it all out here so it’s out and cleared from my head. So, that’s it. For now.

I have that homesick feeling again.

I’m still really upset at Hiro. :/

I really don’t want to go to work today because I don’t want that guy to come yell at me.

I’m back to the point where I feel like I would do anything to see him again.

And I’d do anything to see him.

I’ve realized that while I don’t have a ‘comfort food’ that I eat when I feel stressed out down, I do have a comfort drink: Royal Milk Tea.

Maybe because I was happy when I was drinking it frequently.

I almost went to work at 2:30 today but realized I don’t work until 4:00. That made me feel relieved.

All I want to do is sleep. But I don’t sleep well, so I can’t.

My feet ache because they’re so cold.

Part of me still would totally love to go this weekend. But of course that kind of thing can’t happen.

Not to mention I’d feel completely weird and out of place going.

Just beacuse I’m not into that scene.

And while it would be really awesome, I kind of want it to go differently.

But Jenn and I switched shifts, so I have Thursday off (instead of tomorrow) and Satuday off. Thursday I think Kat, Melinda and I are planning to go to the drive-in. Which is always fun, but I do hate getting eaten alive by the mosquitoes (which will happen because they SWARM ALL OVER ME). No idea what we’ll be seeing (I don’t even know what’s playing, haha) but it’ll be nice to get out and away from the house and the campground.

I’m starting to get really tired of being at the campground.

I love it, but it’s been a long time.

Then on Saturday, if the weather is good, Kat and I were thinking of going to the beach. I really hope we can go… it’s been forever since I’ve been and I want a chance to wear my new bathing suit! Haha.